103011 14:56

slow
time to think
and reflect
trying to get everything in place
how long have i been trying now?
so futile, it seems
but i still try

so many realizations

she's trying to degrade me
convince me i'm worthless
her self deception is horrifying

he reached out to me
thinks i care
wants me to care
tell them about me, he says
tell them because i don't care enough to go back
yeah, that sounds convincing

his life isn't worth anything unless someone is watching
how sad
how lonely

and that's all i needed as a reminder
no more looking back
one foot in front of the other